So hungry today...

Wow, i dont know why i am so hungry today.   I've already eaten 18 POINTS and have 8 left. Though, i have 10 POINTS that I had saved, plus 8 Bonus POINTS.  Its only 2:21pm here as well. *blinks*  Its kinda like the hungry beast has been unleashed!   This morning, I polished off a box of rice crackers, salt n'vinegar.  6 POINTS!!! Eeek!!  I feel a bit guilty about it, though I know i shouldnt. I have more than enough earnt POINTS and BONUS POINTS to more than cover this.  And i still have 8 POINTS left for the day as well.  Its just one of those days where i feel a little lazy, and quite hungry.

I did a bit more sorting today.  Thats the ONLY exercise i had gotten today.  I might grab my  fiance later on and do an exercise video with him. He is always more than happy to do them with me.  I will earn another 2 BONUS POINTS if I do.  I have weigh in tomorrow.  I have some scales at home that I use to gauge my losses, and my weight hasnt budged at all.  Im hoping that something will come off by tomorrow.  I have only gone over my POINTS by 0.5 once this week, but i had more than enough BONUS POINTS to more than cover that.  So i guess its my body being crazy on me again.  For some reason, this usually happens by the time i reach my third week on any weight loss attempt. I will NOT let it bother me.  Im doing the program as best as i can, and its just my body being the way that it is.  Perserverance IS THE KEY!!!  I've had some muscle aches in the back of my legs for the past few days as well, so perhaps im also building some muscle.  And with PCOS, my doctors did tell me that taking the weight off is going to be a bit harder but its Do-able.  I will definately stay for the meeting this week.  I had other things that needed taking care of. Though, in all honesty, I dont really enjoy the meeting I go to. The leader is alright.  I just kinda feel alone.  Im shy and I havent gotten into any group yet.  I feel very invisible.  *sigh*  But on the positive side, I will be moving soon, and I hope to find a meeting that is good.  A meeting where people are a little kinder.  I smiled at one of the newcomers and she turned her head away from me.  Perhaps she is shy, but it doesnt make me feel too good either, especially since i am not used to human interaction. Being so big, i spent most of my time, hiding away from the world because every time i dare venture out into the public eye, people just stare, or shake their heads at me.  People pre-judge you before they even give you a chance.  Society can be so cruel. 

Anyway, im doing this for me.  For my health foremost. Everything else is just gravy.  Someday i will be able to face the public, hold my head up high and be confident.  Each day and my choices will get me to a better place.  It will be a long road, but I will get to where i want to be.  :)

Thanks for reading...